Tuesday, September 7, 2010
@ 6:18 AM
sheesh.
NO one is reading my blog.
hahahah, lame start.
today just sucks alot huh?
im sucha disgrace ?
totally agree.
and if you think you wanna compare me with her AGAIN, well, be my pleasure.
i dont care much.
just wanna say goodluck to your life and ya, im like seriously moving on.
i know i sucks, but i keep my low self esteem at all times high.
i felt honoured to be in people's status.
like totally awesome aye?
Sunday, September 5, 2010
@ 3:54 AM
oh man, i hate this feeling of insecurity.
can i like complain here, dont mind right?
k why am i talking to myself, sheesh, whatever.
remember th time you told me that you will nvr talk to her?
you promised me that, and eventhough we broke, you wont talk to her right?
nah, you didnt kept that promise till th end, like how you always say "be with you till th end." thingy.
how fascanating.
you call me nat?
like wow, great ttm.
act one warrior in front of her, say what want sue me?
LOL, funneeeey!
just think bout it, it was like a few days ago?
after six mont being with you, till today, havent lost contact with your that ex?
what am i thinking man?
like look at those couples out there.
they stead dont even contact any of their ex-s and im here struggling to trust you over th same matter.
gosh, i realise this is unfair.
totally, after only minor things i have done, you "being friendly" talk to that girl.
like hello, im jealous of those couples having perfectly no interuption in their bgr.
though all that, i still choose to trust you.
i hold on to faith.
patiently calming myself down eventhough i scream my head off to you.
we manage pretty well since shes "gone".
well, i dont know, maybe you two contact each other, like who knows?
i continue believing in you.
days past, and realise you are actually talking to this girl.
claudia.
huh, lucky girl to have her name on my awesome blog, full of hatred.
wow, fantastically exchange number with phy and meeting th next day to a movie day out.
on phy's off day, which was suppose to be OUR movie day out.
like omg?
betrayal?
awesome shit.
read on read on, full of dramas yeah.
hahahha, anw, heart pain, th more i msg phy, esp at 3 plus 4 plus.
when phy alr with her.
i was spastic, to go out alone.
nothing was on my mind, i didnt sigh when im on th train to bishan like how i used to.
it was perfectly calm.
at first, took train to bishan and intended to go to circle line, but when i saw empty train at bishan, went to somerset.
best part was that im ALONE.
while th person i love busy watching haunted changi with another women.
ohoh, i love th word "women".
it so emphazise on th egoness.
sidetrack, i didnt cry, not a chance.
my heart was too numb to shed a tear.
or maybe its not worth my precious tear.
i walk in 313, alone, went to forever 21, alone, and best part is on th phone with phy, alone, scolding like mad people, in 313, ALONE.
heeee :D
suddenly th word alone seem so great.
like, im always taking th train ride alone and this is th life im getting used to.
being alone.
phy find me in taka.
had a great talk, well not exactly.
with all th kisses, seriously i hate to settle things with body contact.
grrrr, like wtf did i hug phy for when im still go angry, i guess i just did it.
i know i miss phy so much, and i know i need phy.
i gave in, i throw temper, sacarsm, but if i didnt care, i wont even make an effort to be unhappy.
right?
hahahah, anw, during movie, jac called, wasnt so happy bout that.
but who cares, i dont care to care so much alr.
just now, went all th way to dakota to find phy.
eventhough im really exhausted and lazy.
i dont know why im sucha soft hearted soul but hot tempered -.-
was told that phy wont pamper me so much, oh well, guess i wont give too much passion in this.
